Yesterday was the Island Man's birthday~ I could feel him with me all day long. I still think of him every single day and night, intermittently. But yesterday it was as though I could feel him, like he was standing right next to me. I wonder if that was all me or if it had anything to do with his thoughts and his day. I wonder if he thought that I would forget his birthday or perhaps I didn't come to his mind at all.
He and I were always very strongly telepathic and empathic with each other. For example, I would be thinking about our relationship, some thing that was going on at the time. I would be thinking about these things while I was going through my day and he was at work. I would be thinking about what I wanted to talk with him about when he came home. Then, at some point in the day, he would call and he'd say that he knew what my concerns were and he would address them right there and then, and then he would say that he didn't want me going through the day worrying about these things so he wanted to call me and address them right away. The strange thing was that I hadn't told him anything yet. He would just pick it up. This would happen everyday, in one way or another. It would happen the other way around as well.
I wonder if he had a happy birthday~ I can't say that I feel whether he did or not. He is 48 now~ I thought by now we would be living our life that we kept working at having together. I still cannot believe the turn it took and how it played out. I still wonder so many things about the whole interwoven story.
Happy Birthday My Love, My Island Man~
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i feel a little of you in me..the emotions, the sadness, the longings..
ReplyDeleteit's good to write. It is a good outlet to express. For me, i think, it's probably the only thing that's keeping me sane.
hugs,
~Silver
from Reflections / One Day at a Time
I hear ya....
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by and sharing~
Namaste'